In December 2017 I became a Stay at Home Mom (again). This was a decision that was made after many considerations but the biggest one being that I was unfulfilled in my current profession and was miserable all the time. I would bring that misery home. My children felt. Big Red felt it the most because we always give the worst to the people we love the most.
This time was for me to be the mom I wanted to be. I have! I am a much better mother. I was able to really think about my children and getting to know who they are. Before this I could not have told you that Sissy is a words person. I could not tell you, and I needed a little help from my friend, that she needs time to decompress after school because she is miserable there and before she can dive into homework and chores she needs to watch Food Network and just come into herself. I have been able to go on field trips and keep up with appointments.
My marriage has been able to be a focus and not something that gets left to whenever I have time and am not exhausted. I have been able to really be the cheerleader my husband needs. We are not perfect but we are so much better than before.
The biggest thing that came out this time was being able to figure out where I go from her. What is my vision for my family, for my career, and my life. I tried to go back to work a few times when it looked like the start were aligning but it never panned out the way I thought it would. I took that as a sign that maybe nursing really was not for me. I was not excited about going back to work as a nurse but more for the money and what that meant for my family. So if I don’t want to be a nurse what do I want to do?
So what am I passionate about? What makes me so excited? What do I love to do? What do I fill my time with? I love to be creative. Makeup makes me so excited. I love thinking about what I am going to put on my face and then figuring out my outfit and hair from there. I believe in being a good friend and lending a helping hand. I want to help women feel good about who they are and be their cheerleader as they figure out their purpose. So how do I get to do all those things? I am not entirely sure but I have a plan.
I won’t go into all of it right now but I will say the first step is cosmetology school. Being the absolute best. Practicing and studying every chance I can so I can make sure that I make Deans List. I am saying it right here, right now. No excuses I have the support of some really amazing people. They are willing to be my clients as I learn. They are willing to entertain my children so I can study and go to school without worry about what they are doing this summer. Big Red is just as excited as I am to get started. I cannot remember a time I was this excited about anything.
Next week is the last week of freedom before I start school. I really wish we could skip past it. I am going to take this time to spend some time with my family. Maybe pull the kids out early. Go to lunch with them. I am going to help a friend get ready to move. I am having a breakfast for the ladies who helped me get my scholarship for school. I am preparing myself, my family, and my home for the changes that will come. Step one of Crieda’s plan for the future is school! Stay tuned for what is to come.
Shupp the front door 